Busy Bee Takes a Break

Ugh. Being sick in the summer sucks. Bronchitis sucks. Antibiotics suck. Codeine laced cough syrup is pretty cool though :) Silver lining people, silver lining. I've been working so hard lately on a variety of projects and at the bar so it's no wonder I wore myself rugged. We had a kick ass New York Times review and the place has been insanely busy ever since. I'm also working on producing a burlesque program on a boat that holds 150 people which I'm super excited about. I like being in control of things, lol. Oh, and I'm about to start taking a burlesque class with one of New York's original dancers. And I got new headshots and had a fashion shoot. And am planning another shoot with the photographer to submit to magazines. Yeah, I've been busy.

The wine tasting I do every Sunday keeps getting better and better. I never feel more light-hearted and part of the earth as I do when I'm sailing around the city with the wind in my hair and the taste of seabreeze on my lips. It's literally the best job I've ever had. For a split second when I'm sailing, nothing back on the island of nyc matters anymore. It's just pure life. We're all connected to each other. There is no more hate, only love. It's pure bliss.

Well since I took the evening off because of my death cough, I'm going to lay down with an awesome book and cuddle with my kitties who I've been neglecting lately.

I think the codeine is starting to get to me :) Nighty night world.

Lovable Boy

Does your Life excite you, you Lovable boy?
All the Drinking, the girls, the smoke screen dreams?
Do you like how you treat everyone like a new shiny toy?
And then bask in the thrill of hearing their screams?

Oh Boy, you're running out of all your juice
Soon you will fade and wilt like the rest
To be left alone in your self abuse
Because though the potential was there . . .
You will never be one of the best.


I've been reading Eileen Myles, "Inferno" right now and have been so inspired. Granted my poetry lacks a lot but it's fun to play around with another form of expression :)

Loving Life

I'm loving life today. A lot. With all the ups, the downs, the craziness, the messes, the cleanups, the successes, the failures, the laughter, and the tears. I'm loving it all. I know I say this a lot but I am so thankful for everyone I have and have had in my life. Those who were just passerbys for a brief moment in time and those who I know I'll have for a lifetime.

Aw look, I'm getting all mushy. I'm such a girl. Have a brilliant Thursday everyone. I know I will :)

I Love Adele

"The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside your hand,
And you played it to the beat . . . "

Gone

In another's arms closing her eyes
If She squeezes them shut hard enough . . .
maybe, just maybe for one moment
She'll think it's Him.

But everyone has to open their eyes eventually
And when She does it hurts even more.
Because even though he's a constant presence in her mind
A spirit that still haunts her dreams
He's gone for good in her life.

And no amount of arms can make that go away.

X-Men

"All your life the worlds tried to take you. It's time to be free."

Yes, I'm quoting the new X-Men. No judgment.

PS- I've had the most amazing week and am so grateful for all the positive people in my life. Seriously, love you guys. A lot.

Couldn't Have Said it Better

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe