Always Satisfied

A root of an equation is a number which substituted into the equation instead of an unknown converts the equation into an identity. The root is said to satisfy the equation. Solving an equation implies finding all of its roots. An equation that is always satisfied, no matter the choice of values for its unknowns, is called an identity.

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That's all I have to say about everything right now. Everything. Let's just all do each other a favor and be real in friendships, relationships, and jobs . . . yeah? You down? Ok cool. I'm on board. Unfortunately I don't think the rest of Brooklyn is. Whateves. I'm off to explore New Orleans in two days. Beyond excited to go.

And what would happen if I just stayed?

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Having to leave someone you love who has an addiction is one of the hardest things I've ever been through. Without going through too many details here of the past 9 months of my life . . . let's just say I'm filled with fillings or guilt mixed with false hope. I always thought that people who left loved ones in the midst of an addiction was horribly mean and selfish. But now I understand. Now I get that sometimes you have to save the only person you can. Yourself. Because otherwise you'll be dragged right down with them. Anyway, I know most of you have no clue what I'm talking about but I just needed to write it out. . . woooo . . . breathe . . .

In other news, I've been acting and dancing a lot lately. My cabaret troupe is really taking off and I'm proud and thankful to be a part of it. Last night I shot a Victoria's Secret spec commercial which was fun. Although to be honest I've been finding all these acting roles a bit boring lately. I need something good and juicy. Ha, what I really need is a script that can hold the kind of intensity of my actual life.

I'm not sure at what point my real life became more intense and insane than my acting life. But I would like to work on switching that back for awhile.

E

Dead Bunny Cabaret

Glitter, dance, expression, art. Last night was amazing. I have recently shifted a bit of focus from acting to dance and I am so in love. I never thought that I would find anything I loved more than acting but I have. Dance and aerial. They are just other types of performance but it's something I never dreamed of doing and I'm having the time of my life. Thank you so much to the Dead Bunnies, the House of Yes, and everyone who has loved and supported me in this new venture. I've never been so happy in New York and I can't wait to see where all of this goes. And yes Mom, I know I'm semi nude in this photo, but it's just another form of glorious expression :) I bet Grandma wouldn't call my boobs little egg yolks anymore if she was around to see this :)

Thank you everyone for your love and support!

xx,
E

Spring is Almost Here!

It's almost Spring. So happy. Don't have words. Seriously though, it is absolutely gorgeous outside today. I had a beautiful walk to rehearsal this morning and am so excited for our awesome Burlesque show next Wednesday at Crash Mansion (woo woo!). And scared as hell because I might be performing a solo piece for the first time. Ahhhh! EXCITEMENT!!!!

In other news, tomorrow will be my last day of filming a project that I've been working on for the past three months. It's a pretty traumatic scene, so though I'm glad to be acting, it's going to be difficult. But it'll feel good to wrap the project up.

Ok, sorry for the short entry. I was super excited to finally have a day off and watch Oprah but now she's making me cry. Damn Oprah.

:D

Oh, and I guess because of my heritage I should wish everyone a Happy St. Patrick's Day! I will not be joining the hoards of drunks in the city. I will be having much more fun watching a silks variety show in the BK. You should too if you're around!

xx

Oyster Mania!

I. am. officially. obsessed. with. oysters. I am so glad that I'm working at this oyster bar. If you've been a long time blog follower here then you know my obsession with crabbing. Being from Maryland, I have an innate love for everything sea, old bay, and crab. I go crabbing every summer and even made a short film about it. There is nothing in the world like the feeling of catching your own food and then eating the succulent meat just a few hours later. It's amazing. I've always said that if I wasn't an actor I'd be a crab-(wo)man. And now . . . now I get to explore the wonderful world of oysters. I read books, do tastings, and watch the shuckers with fascination every night I work. I can't wait to one day pull oysters out of the ocean and shuck them myself. Yumm.

Also learning a ton about Absinthe. Love it.

Off to go do an acting gig where I improv with men who are learning how to hit on women . . . I have the oddest jobs, lol.

Mmmwaaah! Have a wonderful weekend blog readers! ♥

2011 . . . You Make Me Happy

Oh dear blog, I have been neglecting you. My deepest apologies. So many wonderful things have been happening in this glorious new year that I have not had a second to breathe it all in and write it all down. Until I got knocked unconscious by the flu. I guess that's life's way of saying, "Hey E! We know you're super excited about this new era, but take it a bit more slow. Stop and smell the roses." So, here we go.

I had an amazing night last Friday. It was the premier of a film that I had a leading role in, which screened at Tribeca cinemas. Now, let me preface this by saying that I've done over 25 indie films while here in NYC, over half of which have had official screenings, and many of which have made it onto IMDB. That in anyone else's eyes may hold a certain amount of success, but to be honest . . . and I hope I'm not hurting anyone's feelings here . . . to be honest, I haven't been proud of any of them. This has more to do with me than it does with the actual product. I am my own worst critic and can pick apart my performance faster than termites can destroy the foundation of a small shack.

Which is why Friday was so amazing. My plus one had to work so I brought one of my best friends instead, which turned out to be more fun than I imagined. We dolled ourselves up while sipping on orange flavored vodka at my place, hurridly jumped into a cab, and made our way to Tribeca. We got there with one minute to spare, bought some popcorn (because there is nothing that makes you feel more officially like a movie star than eating popcorn while watching yourself on the big screen), and found the only two seats left . . . right in the front row.

Now I usually have a tendency to giggle every time my character comes onscreen during these premiers, but I gotta say that I was pretty tame this time. I was so impressed with the movie and actually (gasp) proud of my performance that I felt myself drawn into the storyline as opposed to criticizing everything. Us actors spend so much time dogging ourselves and overcompensating for our wishy-washy self esteems, that it felt right to start out the new year with such a positive experience. Because let's face it, acting is fucking hard. Living in a cold city of over 15 million people with no family and nothing to separate you from the thousands of other beautiful talented people can certainly wear you down. Which is why we need to take these small moments of success and bask in them. We work f'ing hard. Might as well enjoy the small moments that make it all worth it.

And thanks to my bestie for being such a proud mamma :)

In other news, I decided that I was a little tired of being poor so I got a job at a classy, adorable oyster bar in my neighborhood. I'm super excited about it because we're all opening it together so it feels more like a project than a serving job. Oh, and I've decided that I want to open a pie shop/whiskey bar one day. Although, I'm giving up whiskey for lent this year. I also want to get my production company up and running, get new headshots, start freelancing with a couple more agents, update my comp cards and website . . . . ok, ok, I'll slow down. One step at a time. First official night at the oyster bar tonight :)

Breathing in the new year and loving every moment.